7mm Confessions

sweet angel
delicate as orchid
in my palms
dance,play,sing
to my heart's delight
but i fear my heart's restraint
oh,how it makes me sad
but i have learned
and i am better

sweet angel
delicate as dew
in my heart
stay,dream,grow
to our heart's desire
but i fear my heart's restraint
oh, how it makes me blue
but this is the way
and i love you so

It’s the eve of a beginning my love
Bitter sweet memories has flown like dove
From dreamy town to city park cafes
Love grows on with White Russian and bouquets


Neon lights like kaleidoscope replaced
The town fireflies were we sat and stargazed
Sand dunes and grassy school track and field plains
Are now tiled floors, glass tables with no stains


Be brave my love and don’t ever get lost
The city lights is tempting at love’s cost
Don’t be sad for the new dawn is coming
It’s that way before the sun comes shining


Come now, smile, this is a true love theater
Props and backgrounds may change, not the player
I’l be there to share how much love has shone
With distance comes growth and true devotion

That night we ran
To a house nearby
Wet and cold we tried
Why must it rain tonight?

we slipped inside
in this still old house
Silent tales etched its walls
Should it add something tonight?

Don’t be scared with creaking stairs
As long as there is rain
No one should hear us
Why must it rain tonight?

Like ghosts we floated to a room
Not quite knowing why
Not quite knowing how
Why must this heart beat so wild?

With your glossy skin
Like 10 million pinlights
You lit up this room so bright
Why must you glow in the dark?

And in that room
While the rain pelted the roof
The wind howled on and on
Is there an end to this rain?

A leak through the roof
Made its way through your forehead
Through it I thought I saw stars
Did I miss the tears?

The rain is gone
We rose like mushrooms
Bid farewell to this still old house
Oh why did it rain tonight?

Lets run away just for tonight
Meet me at your father’s doorstep
And shower me with overdue kisses
hid beneath the stars ‘neath the santol tree
and thru the chasing, taunting leaves
lets laugh at the moons prying eyes
For you have been away ,away for too long

Show me, thrill me, feel me, tell me,
with your travails across the sea
tell me what you like but dont
cry for the truth you made, i wont.
For in this journey we started
Bad might be good, good might be bad
Tell me your story tonight and I mine
For you have been away, away for too long

Let’s believe for the best
and our tight embrace erase all distance
Fill to overflowing the love you see
For there can never be as great as this
My love is yours, your love is mine
Come lets bask forever in the glow
Embrace, kiss, feel me once more ‘til midnight
And lets head back to your fathers’
doorstep before were missed
il be here again for more tomorrows
for you have been away, away for too long

Contagious as the morning east is the search
Of valleys and hills where sunflowers bloom
Narrowly look at the lines carefully I’ve penned
In the corner of your eyes you might find soon
Every letter of a name defined
Motionless as a lake at times yet you animate things with a look
On a sun bathe stone pavers path you walk alone and yet not alone
Neverland is a maze of untold tales yet it cant begin to describe
The tale conscious as the Gemini twins that is you and at the
End of these lines I hope you will find my love even
Just a glimpse of the name that sets me up like wildfire
On every 6th of the month and the following days thereafter.

your beauty is to me

countless moons converged

from galaxies light years apart

bathing sea-foamed shores

where darkened horizons are recreated

by either stars or lamplights

looking into your eyes

is like watching a falling star

silent and brief yet

they speak in volumes

like Alibuag spring bifurcating rivers

of stories of heaven on earth

your lips, they make me immortal

how exquisite the pain they bring

they remind me of mangosteens

and their fragrance on a Friday evening

oh, let me drink from them forevermore!

you are by far more enchanting

than mantianak tree park at 6pm

you put to shame the flowers and cogon grass

as you walk passed them

the serenades in my heart

will play on forever and a day

for such is your beauty to me

but most importantly the love

we share and hope to see

30 years from now!

They’ve been talking mostly of trivial things for an hour now. Each knowing what really mattered talking about but could not quite find the right timing, who should start and where to start. It was a windy night at alibuag beach. The waves crashed just a few feet from where they sat. Somewhere beyond the wide expanse of the sea a storm was raging.

They walked at the shore towards the spring. As she stood at the top of the pool a wind caught her hair across her face. She brushed it back and hugged his jacket around her tight. He was glad he brought his jacket yet he silently cursed at how unprepared he was. He should have come earlier and instructed Bagdong, the caretaker, to at least turn all of the beach lights on and prepared a sit for them. What will her father think? Now, only the moon dimly illumined the beach and somehow he will have to find a spot for both of them to sit on. She made quick steps to avoid the incoming waves crashing on to the side of the pool. Light as the wind she did it. He followed her with a little bit off timing just in time as the waves crashed on the side of the pool. His shoes meets the sea for the first time. He wore shoes at the beach. He closed his eyes again at that thought. Carefully she went down inside the pool and watch the spring water gently pour out at the base of the outcrop.

“This spring is enchanted” He finally managed to speak. She smiled, “really? ”He pointed at the spring, “ a long time ago this used to be deep, a cow could fit in”. She smiled again not knowing if she should believe or not. Suddenly a strong wind came in. The bamboo lamp post made an eerie sound as it swayed with the wind. They looked up at it and then at each other. “We should head back”. She climb ahead and he followed her through the outcrop and down at the shore again were they sat.

They were silent again. And its taking a little longer each time before they could a find something to talk about. He stood and watched the night sky ahead. There were no bangkas tonight. No lamplights to recreate the darkened horizon. But their were stars and right behind them a new moon shone brightly. She stood beside him. Momentarily, a falling star blazed a trail at the sky. Both surprised, he quickly made a wish silently and looked at her. He watched her close her eyes. “What did you wish for?” He asked. “Nothing. It’s a secret.” She looked at him and smiled. The moonbeam played with the shadows on her face while the wind played softly on her hair.

“What do I mean to you?” He finally said it. She looked down at the sand and brushed it with her foot. “I’m sorry”, She continued brushing at the sand. “You and me, what would people say?”,She continued without looking up. He looked at her, “What would people say?”

Somewhere the wind hauled like a storm is coming. He couldn’t read her. That was the problem. They where both standing facing the sea. That night, only she knows how it should end. She sensed him, ”No. It’s not like that. I have feelings for you”. There she said it. And they were back again at square one. “…Then what’s wrong?” He added.

He looked down at the sand while brushing it with his shoes. He went down and wrote something on it with his fingers. He looked up at her smiling. She read it and smiled back,“Don’t know if I should believe you”. The waves crashed again and again at the rocks and on to the sands. It was like that for millions of years. It was beautiful how the way things are.

“I should be writing something too”, she teased him. “Help me find a stick to write”. He found a dead root of a Talisay tree nearby. He snapped it and gave it to her. “Now, you should go away while I write what I have to say, please”. He gave a puzzled look for a moment but backed away without questioning.
For a long time he stood staring at the sea a few feet from her. She kept writing and erasing something until finally she stood and went to where he was. “You can look now”, she was serious. He managed just to walk towards it.

He just sat there looking at what she wrote. No expressions on his face. She went beside him, “ what’s wrong?”, she searched his face. “I couldn’t read what you wrote”, he lied. “step aside let me see it”. He moved away. “ Perhaps I didn’t wrote it well”. She studied what she wrote and when she looked up, he was walking towards her smiling. She smiled too and stood to meet him. He came beside her. They were never this close. Slowly he slid his arms around her waist and she came close to him. Together they faced the sea and the sky. It was a windy night at alibuag beach and the waves crashed a few feet from them and somewhere beyond the vast expanse of the sea a storm has subsided.